Is it Abuse?

John became less and less cooperative as we progressed through the divorce and remained in the same house together.  He continued to twist everything I said and did to try and make me doubt myself. I'm not sure why I engaged in conversations with him about the divorce.  Perhaps I still thought that I might …

Pregnant and on the Run

As my daughter grew inside of me I focused on the joy and anticipation of holding her in my arms as well as the love I had for my son.  I continued to walk on eggshells.... I continued to take care of the majority of the household chores and responsibilities... and I continued to learn …

La! La! La!

Looking back I realize that one of John's preferred places to have an argument was the car.  I have found myself wondering if he somehow enjoyed the idea that I was trapped in a small space with him and I couldn't get away.  I tried not to spark too many conversations when we were on …

Misplaced Anger

Right before I met John, his mother and father divorced.  His mother is the one who filed.  She never shared with me what went wrong in that relationship, but the few things that John shared with me over the years led me to believe that her marriage had a lot of similarities to mine.  Control.... …

Eggshells

Over the years I started to learn some of the patterns that would set John off... but most of the time I wouldn't see it coming.  As a result I found myself walking on eggshells all the time.  As I mentioned in a previous post, I would question anything I said before saying it.  I …