Have you ever had to talk yourself through breathing? Legitimately tell yourself, "Take a breath in.... now blow it out... again..." as if you might stop breathing on the spot if you didn't remind yourself how to do it? Have you ever felt the debilitating pain in your chest as you fought to force your … Continue reading Breathe
One thing I learned as I researched narcissists is that they rarely admit their flaws. John was no different. The reality of our impending divorce was very clear. There was no question that this divorce was happening. Living in the house was like walking around live grenades all day trying not to set one off. … Continue reading Ostrich
John became less and less cooperative as we progressed through the divorce and remained in the same house together. He continued to twist everything I said and did to try and make me doubt myself. I'm not sure why I engaged in conversations with him about the divorce. Perhaps I still thought that I might … Continue reading Is it Abuse?
Things really stared heating up after John was served. I started keeping a journal of everything that was happening at home in the hopes that a judge would someday look at it and see that it was dangerous for the children to have time alone with John. John became even more short and rough with … Continue reading An Unstable Man