When I first started talking to people on the online dating apps I was very clear about my intentions. I had just gotten out of a very unhealthy marriage and I was looking to meet people to spend time with, but I was not looking for anything serious. My children would always come first and … Continue reading My First Date After Divorce
I was extremely unhappy in my marriage with John. I threw myself into my work and my kids to try and find happiness there... and I did.... but something was still missing. John's aggressive arguments only got more frequent and more intense. I made it a point to barely say anything to him when the … Continue reading Is this Normal?
When I was pregnant with Quinn a tragic event occurred in my hometown. It rocked our community to its core and even though I was not currently living there, it made an everlasting impact on me. I remember checking Facebook on my phone very quickly before heading to lunch duty. One of my friends had … Continue reading Choose Love
Life with John had quickly trained me to be used to doing things by myself. I rarely asked for help because when I did he would either purposefully act like he had no idea how to do simple things, or he would have an excuse why he couldn't help. (For example when I asked him … Continue reading Carsick
John's fuse seemed to get shorter and shorter with each passing day. I continued to try to make the best of things, but it started getting harder. I found myself coming into work flustered and frazzled as each morning would start with him screaming at me for something, or him doing something to the children … Continue reading Run!
John's aggressive nature towards me had become my normal. I imagine that almost all relationships have moments where one of the partners comes off as aggressive or insensitive. My relationship with John was made almost purely of these moments however. At least once a day there would be a conversation that resulted in John chasing … Continue reading Mirror, Mirror
John has always been a person who loves technology. He is employed as a software engineer at a very reputable company. At a young age he learned how to program computers and ended up making that hobby into a side job in which he earned additional income. He had visions of fully automating the … Continue reading The Television
John was always very rigid when it came to any medical intervention. He told me once that if he ever developed cancer he would cure it by just "changing his diet". I used to have to beg him to allow me to give James Tylenol when he had a high fever. He never really had … Continue reading The Tubes
Spending time with my children has always been a source of joy for me. There was never enough time during the week because we were always running around to different appointments after school and work. The weekends were precious, uninterrupted family time that I treasured. One weekend John asked me if I'd go with him … Continue reading The Party
As time passed and the children grew, my busy mom life continued on. I became more comfortable with James' diagnosis of high functioning autism and our lives became a daily adventure of eating dinner in the car while I drove the kids to one of James' many appointments. We were on the go so often … Continue reading Us vs Him